RainLloyd

::goofiness alert:: Level 2 Mild goofiness

Nowadays, especially in cities, it is hard to find the complete darkness at night. There is an easy way to experience the total darkness and you can do this anywhere anytime when you are wearing a shirt or something with long sleeves (they kind of need to be loose), preferably with thick material that lights cannot pass through. A coat works nicely.

All you do is to pull the sleeves a little so your hands are completely in the sleeves, and place the hole of the sleeves on your eyes with them-right sleeve hole to your right eye, left for your left, or whichever, making it so that your eyes are staring into the sleeves at your fists.

You might think I'm stupid or nuts and maybe I am, but when I do this it's amusing to me and strangely calming. I do it like twice a winter. It's different from the darkness you experience when you close your eyes at night. You feel safe and calm in your sleeves.

I think experiencing the complete darkness is a big deal. I have first experienced it in a cave (a really huge one. I think a three-story building can fit in it, or even larger.) in Okinawa when there was a war people used it as hiding places or a place to take care of injured people. It was a school trip. The guide turned off the flashlight. We couldn't hear anything. We couldn't see anything. For a second, you doubt your own existence. It is an amazing feeling. Could be scary and I think I will lose my mind if I stand there alone for ..maybe a minute. Or rather, three seconds. But this darkness in the sleeves I'm talking about makes me calm, because of the fact that I know I am covering my eyes with the sleeves, it makes a big difference. It's amazing how the darkness can give you different feelings like this.

It's a joy to find something small like this interesting. I don't recommend doing it in public. If you do this in a private space, it would be like a private space (your sleeves) in private space.lol ...I should get back to my study...

Hello! Thank you all for visiting my gallery and taking time to look at my works and especially ! ≧▽≦　I really appreciate it♡

Today I am writing (or rather typing) because something that made me really happy happened to me that I wanted to share!

Since this is my first time ever to make a journal entry I feel I need to introduce myself

I am Nanako Sase, I am Japanese and I am here in the United States to attend college. Although this is my fourth year here I still occasionally get homesick, missing my loving family and dear friends, and foods, and shopping for cute stuff and everything else. lol

As an artist, I've been doing art since I was little but it is just recent that I started to become more serious about it. So I am still a beginner and learning new things each day. Right now I have lots of ideas but my hands are not able to express them as I see in my mind because of the lack of skills, but I do LOVE doing art.

Enough about myself. Anyway, today I got an email from my dearest friend of mine, K (her initial is K so I call her K on here). She is my soulmate. She is like, a goddess of dolls. I can't describe her in words 'cause she is so beautiful and smart and delightfull and funny.. Anyway, in her email she said "I want to see more of your art works." ...This just one sentence. When I read this, I was in the happiest moment in my entire life as an artist. (and I immediately sent her the image of my work I just made. lol because I was so darn happy♡)

I have gotten complements from teachers, friends, family before, but I get very different feelings coming from K. The truth is I get lots of inspirations from her. I have never expected that she would like my art because she has an incredible taste in art, fashion and everything. She is so sophisticated, and I'm not. lol But in soul, I feel so close to her. So when I heard she wanted to see more art from me, I was like, "YES!!!!!" lol

I thought it would make me happy as an artist if my art could someday bring happiness or some goodness to many people, you know and get appreciated by many people. But I'm finding out that that's not really it. If nobody cared for my art but K loved it, I feel like I'm in heaven. My heart bounces and jumps toward somewhere I store all my infinite creativity and I take some home so I can share more with K, like a fairy taking stars from night sky or a farmer picking apples from treesXD

I wonder any artists feel the same way (about thinking that having special someone to share their art is important)? I think each artist has a different reason to create things that they creat, and that's how it should be because each of us is different, but this factor that I have someone I want to create things for is a big portion of why I do art.

I am so thankful to have K in my life, as an artist and as a being. I am looking forward to seeing her in person this May in my home country for the first time in almost two years I think and I'm gonna enjoy every second of it

Thank you for your precious time again. I appologize if my English is hard to read or I misspelled something. Please feel free to leave comments. Have a nice day!

Nanako